Shadows...

"We mortals are but shadow and dust." -Proximo (Gladiator)
Almost a year since I last wrote on here and it was bittersweet reading my last post.  A year had gone of subbing in the Mankato area along with tons of volleyball with playing, reffing and coaching.  People have come and gone in my life and have grown immensely over this past year.  I had a great plan of subbing in the district and then hoping that the position I had last year at DMMS would open up and I would be a lock to get the job.  All of that happened to a "T", except for the final part.
I wasn't a lock for the job, I didn't even get an interview.  In a crazy turn of events, those in higher authority at the school decided "I wasn't a good fit for the school".  I was in shock when I heard this and what led up to it was an occurence happened when I subbed and administration asked only the student's flawed & errored opinions and not mine on the situation.
After about a month of cooling off time I've realized that through everything, that I was trying to write my own story.  I had just assumed that I would get the job, that this was the lock of the year.  Lone behold "my" plan got messed up.  I've know realized and fully believe that I am to focus on and following after God's story for me.   I read a great line someone posted on facebook.  "Don't try to imitate relationships in movies, those are written by screenwriters.  Your love story can be written by God."  This made me begin to think that it was my want and desire to work at DMMS and didn't even prayerfully consider if that was where God wanted me, but rather assumed it was.
Going back to that first quote, our lives are but shadows and dust.  Here and gone in a second.  It can be the same with stages of our lives. What we need to remember that God has the perfect story in store for us, we just might not be able to understand why or how or what he is doing.  I guess I'd rather have a limitless, loving God write my story than my dumbwitted self.

"What we do in life, echoes in eternity."  -Maximus (Gladiator)